well there are alot of things that i have done wrong in my life and i never relized as much as i have today! i have lost my mom and almost the love of my life, i messed up and i relize this(when it is probably to late!!!) know i am sorry to all of those that i hurt i am talkin about anyone if it was in tha 3rd grade i am extremely sorry i just to be a good person and to have a life and to love and to be loved i want to make everything right and i know what i have to do to make things right so know, no matter how hard it is and how much it hurts i am goin to do it!::::

1. dont flirt even unintentionel!
2. say sorry to those who i have hurt.
3. take time to find myself, to learn who i am and figure all that out!
4. work on having more friends and to treat people better.(MORE COMPASION)
5. to forgive those who have hurt me no matter how hard the damage was!
6. to let the wall DOWN!!
7. be a better person!
8. and most of all work on my relationship with justin to let him now that i care and to gain his trust back, even if we do break up i am goin to show him that i care and i WILL gain his trust back no matter what it takes i will.

today i talked to my counsler and i know now that i am a seccesful person and i am beautiful and i can do good in life but with relationships i have to love myself before i can love anyone else! that is what i was told and it is so true even though i do love people, the reason i cant show it and be true, to give my all is because i dont love myself the way i should!

i am not posting this for sympathy thats not what i want and i am not posting it for anyone other than myself, i am doing this to make myself feel better.

xoxojulez